Diary Entry #7

Dear Ana,

Another day of self-hatred, another day of crying myself silly over skinny, beautiful girls.
The day went relatively okay. My mom and I went to the pet store to get Hermit Crab supplies and books. We also went to Best Buy where I bought A Flair For The Dramatic and Let's Cheers To This and fangirled with the checkout girl over how amazing those bands were.
We got home and I shaved my legs and all that jazz seeming how I'm going to an amusement park Tuesday. It was good until 9 PM, when I made a box of Spongebob Mac n Cheese and ate All.Of.It. I feel sick; like I should throw it all back up. Plus I didn't take my walk today so I feel like such a failure. Tomorrow, no excuses, I'm waking up at 8 and walking to the library. I'll bring money and water with me and I'll just spend the day there reading, doing crafts, playing on the xbox, etc. I'll work on my entry for the book reading contest. See, it's all perfect. Think about how much smarter I'll be by reading all of those books and biographies! Andd, I'll be too preoccupied to eat. Killing two birds with one stone.

I should get sleepy so that I can wake up and walk.

Wishes For The Better,
Holly

Reason #1 To Be Skinny

Boys will think I'm beautiful

Song Of The Day

R.I.P : Rita Ora featuring Tinie Tempah

I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH!!!!! I JUST FUCKING BINGED AND ATE AN ENTIRE BOX OF SPONGEBOB MAC N CHEESE. I WANT TO BE THIN SO BAD ANA PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE. WHY CAN'T I BE AS PRETTY AS AUTUMN? WHY CAN'T I BE LOVELY AND OLDER AND WANTED BY GUYS?? PLEASE I JUST WANT TO BE THIN.

I told my mom that I wanted to get this book because I love the author...as true as that is I hope that I'll pick up a few tips while reading it.

SONG OF THE DAY

I've decided to start doing a "Song Of The Day". I believe you can learn a lot about people through their music so I thought this would help you guys to get to know me a little more.

SONG FOR A DAY:

A Match Into Water - Pierce The Veil

Diary Entry #6

Dear Ana,

My parents are at a local festival and I am sitting by myself at home snackin' on some watermelon. I know I already ate today but I turned down ice cream cake and took a 4 mile walk to I think I deserve it.

I walked to the festival myself actually (trying to get over the whole anxiety thing). However, once I got there, I saw a herd of preps. I can safely say that I turned the opposite direction and called my mom to pick me up (seeming how it got dark out and I'm a teenage girl so ya).

I got my school registration shit today in the mail. I gagged and about threw up. God, I hate school.

Well, I gotta find the remote because Catfish just got over and this new show is stupid.

Stay Lovely,
Holly