I'm crying very hard right because I wish I had the courage to come out as bisexual. My dad would probably be alright with it because my sister is bisexual as well (mind you she's 24 and currently married with children to a man but was in a 2 year relationship with a girl and her and the girl are still friends) but my mom and step-dad and entire rest of my maternal family are conservative Catholics and homophobic. My mom always makes jokes about the lesbian girl across the street from us (I am friends with her keep that in mind), calling her "the lesbian" and commenting on her short hair and clothing choices. I keep reminding her and my step-dad that she has a name and shouldn't be called "the lesbian" but every time I do they make fun of me for sticking up for her.
Basically, when I was about seven, I had this neighborhood best friend (who was a girl). Up until then I wasn't intrigued about sex or anything but one day we "experimented" and then I became very confused. My interest peeked in sex and the woman body in general. I would look through my babysitter's husbands Playboy magazines and be just fascinated. I even went to the extremes of going on the Playboy website and watching the Girls Gone Wild shows on TV. I got caught, however, and my mom was furious. I was scared - so scared - so I told her that I wanted to know more about the Girls Next Door TV show (because we would always watch it). She found that answer reasonable and we moved on.
But then my older half-sister started dating this girl. I was astounded - girls can date and kiss girls? They seemed so happy together and were loving towards each other. It got my wheels turning in my head. If my older sister can like girls like that then why can't I?
From then on, I declared myself bisexual. I like boys and girls (manly boys, naturally, but girls spark my interest here and there). I have never told anybody. Past best friends have egged me on, trying to get me to spill. But high school friendships don't last long, I'm not stupid, so I don't tell. You people (whoever see this post) are the only ones in the entire world who know. So, please don't judge me...I just want to be accepted.
